If My Tears Could Bring You Back


The song, If My Tears Could Bring You Back was performed by Midnight Sons, and can be found on the Pokemon: The First Movie soundtrack.

How will I start tomorrow
Without you here?
Whose heart will guide me
When all the answers disappear?

He knelt down, gathering her battered form to him, cradling her ever-so-gently. "Lina," he sobbed, "Please, please don't leave me..."

Is it too late?
Are you too far gone to stay?
This one's forever
Should never have to go away

"Open your eyes, Lina! Look at me! Answer me!" His voice cracked with emotion, words filled with tears he refused to shed.

What will I do?
You know I'm only half without you
How will I make it through?

"She's survived worse than this!" he all but screamed at the two who warily approached. Thunder rumbled ominously.

"If it's her time...if L-sama wills..." the chimera stammered sadly.

"Then there's nothing we can do," the princess finished for him.

The swordsman merely bowed his head, blonde locks falling in a curtain over his face. He pressed his forehead against his love's, tears he tried so hard not to shed running in rivers down his cheeks. "No..."

And the rain poured down as if the heavens wept with him.

If only tears could bring you back to me
If only love could find a way
What I would do, what I would give
If you'd return to me
Someday, somehow, someway
If my tears could bring you back to me

If only he'd never agreed to let her go on this pointless crusade... If only her greed had clouded her judgment... If only she'd listened to him, for once...

Then she'd have never heard about the Demon's Heart gem, never insisted on searching for it, never dragged their group into No-Man's-Land in the middle a of Mazoku-infested kingdom...

She wouldn't have been caught off-guard...

And she wouldn't be lying here, dying in his arms.

I'd cry you an ocean
If you'd sail on home again
Waves of emotion
Will carry you and all they can

"Lina," he choked through his despair, "please...I know you can hear me. You can't leave us...You can't leave me. I need you, Lina. I need you by my side, to keep me on my toes, to keep me warm on snowy nights, to grow old with..." He let out a strangled sob as his tears began anew. "I can't.....I can't live without you!"

Just let love guide you
And your heart will chart the course
Soon you'll be drifting
Into the arms of your true north

He buried his face in her flame-red hair; his body wracked with sobs he could no longer control. He cried for what seemed like centuries, until there were no more tears, no possible way his body could shed another. A whisper of skin, a breath of a touch on his arm made him look up. Lina's small hand lay there, pale, trembling with the effort it took her to get it there.

Look in my eyes
You'll see a million tears have gone by
And still they're not dry

He looked down into her eyes...they were open!


Her brow creased with worry, and she tried vainly to push words past her numb lips.

"Shhh...I'll.....I'll be...okay," she whispered.

Pain reflected in every tiny movement; he could see it cloud her ruby-red eyes. His own pooled with tears again.

If only tears could bring you back to me
If only love could find a way
What I would do, what I would give
If you'd return to me
Someday, somehow, someway
If my tears could bring you back to me

The chimera and the princess stood off to one side, exchanging disheartened looks. Always the realist, he went first, putting to words the facts they both sadly knew.

"She's...she's not going to be leaving here with us."

The princess sobbed. "I know." The blood... there was far too much blood... and there was no spell she could cast that would bring her friend back from the thin edge she was now walking. "He's going to be heartbroken."

The chimera nodded, having no reply. He was having to keep his own feelings tightly in check. He was the strong member of the group... he had to be strong. Though he refused to voice it, he silently wondered if they would be digging two graves when they returned home...

"You'll be alright, Lina, you'll see... We'll get you home, find a Healer for you," the swordsman rambled, not knowing what else to do; he was trying to be positive, trying to ignore the ghastly paleness of her skin and how it only worsened by the minute.

"When we get home, I'm going to buy you the biggest dinner you ever saw, and - "

She silenced him with a touch, weakly moving her hand from his arm to cup his cheek. In a voice so soft he had to lean closer to hear, she said, "I want you to find someone...someone who will be good to you... Someone to make you happy, to give you the life you deserve. Someone to give you...what I can't."

"But Lina, you make me happy. You're all I need."

She shook her head slowly. "I can't be what you want me to be. But know that no matter what, I'll always be with you..." And she closed her eyes.

I'd hold you close
And shout the words I only whispered before
For one more chance
For one last kiss
There's no pain that I will not endure


She didn't answer.


The hand that rested against his cheek fell limply to her side as the sorceress known as Lina Inverse, in the arms of her beloved, breathed her last. "LINA!!!"

His cry was that of a desperate soul, the despairing howl of a man who has lost everything. He clutched her body tightly to him, rocking her feebly and crying tears like they would never cease again.

If only tears could bring you back to me
If only love could find a way
What I would do, what I would give
If you'd return to me
Someday, somehow, someway
If my tears could bring you back to me

Zelgadis sighed and wiped a crystalline tear from his eye. The road home was going to a be a long and hard one...if they ever made it.

Author's Notes

Okay, so this is REALLY depressing...but for some reason, thats what came out when I put my fingers to the keys this time... The song it's set to is actually a really great one. I guess I just had to "get the sad fics out of my system" as some authors say. All I can say is: if you don't like it, than don't read it!