I Knew


I knew I could -
trust.
I knew I could -
love.
But I knew if I did I may crush in your hand

I knew you were -
there.
I knew you were -
near.
But I knew there were things I could not understand.

I just walked -
away.
From the pain and the -
fear.
And the lovely illusion that old scars may mend.

Now I find myself -
drifting.
Apart from -
the whispers.
of words in my mind I do not comprehend.

Are you there, now -
dreaming.
Alone in -
a nightmare.
That's becoming to real for a mortal's weak soul?

The hurts and the -
fear.
of inevitable -
ending.
Alone in the darkness and numbness and cold?

Maybe a -
handhold.
a grip on the -
truth.
a voice in the twilight to follow me home,

A light in the -
darkness,
A ship in the -
harbor,
a mother and child and with no need to roam,

I'll find a place -
safe.
and I'll find a place -
warm.
And I'll find the bright haven that pulls at my chains,

The traveler is -
weary,
But ever is -
standing,
And holding my beacon while calling your name.


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