Sorrowing


Notes

This is from Xellos's P.O.V. and it's really trippy and kinda dark. As you can see the verse I used is the creepest verse. This actually came to mind when I was thinking about the Caroling party I always go to ^^;;;


"Myrrh is mine
It's bitter perfume
Breathes of life of gathering gloom
Sorrowing
Sighing
Bleeding
Dying
Sealed in a cold stone tomb"

- from the song We Three Kings


People...what do they know?
Of real pain?
Real suffering?
About hate?
Hate is a viel that has been placed over the universe
It's hard sometimes...
Enjoying war.
Death.
I can't remeber a time when I didn't.
Mistress has never told me about it so I've assumed I
was always mazoku
Demon race...
Mazoku?
Yes yes that's it.
What I am and what I have always been.
Yet...
Is it possible to find that something is missing?
My life is serving my Mistress.
But what...
is missing?
The fact that I will never die is somewhat...
Sometime bleeck.
The world can be so boring sometimes.
Sometime I think it's up to me make something more....
Interesting.
But I'm still trapped really.
For me there is no escape from life.
And I think I will go insane I don't find one.
Always the same tasks...
Trapped.
I'm trapped in my own life.
Death alludes me.
I can never have the peace of dying.
In other words I can never be at peace.
I am forever.
A creature of eternity?
Yes...
But I don't think I want to be
One day I will want to die...
Even now I want to be at piece.
I wonder if my Mistress does...
Mazoku have jumped over the hurrdle of Death.
There is no sickness...
No old age
So there is no Death
Unless we die by another's hand
I wonder...
Could I?
I pray that someday I will have peace.
Yet...
yet...
Death still never comes...
I'm haft glad.
Parts of me want to die.
Some don't.
L-Sama is this insainty?
Or is this sainty at the brink of collasping?
The most horrific thing I could think of...
would wake up and see nothing.
Is that going to happen?
One day to open my eyes and...
See infinity?


Notes

Oy...that was dark...boy I got 3 hours of sleep last night so I think I'll just go and pass out now.


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