Ruminations of a Slayer II


Pain.

Why do we have to feel pain? All it does is cause people strife. All it does is hurt. It gives us a reminder of our limitations.

Pain flashes through me yet again. Why does it always end up like this? We go into battle against what should be an almost undefeatable foe and end up defeating it. But I almost always get hurt, too. I try not to let it show of course. If everyone knew how much it hurts when I get slammed into walls, or how my brain feels like swords have been run through it when trolls whack their spiked clubs up against my skull, maybe they'd say something. Then again, maybe not. Amelia did go a bit ballistic when she saw me lying in a pool of blood…but blood scares her. And why shouldn't it? Probably saw her mother like that the night she was assassinated.

Would they care if I died? If I died all alone, somewhere far from them? If someone bothered to give me a funeral and they heard about it, would they come? Would they have last respects to give?

I don't know. I think I used to, but I don't anymore.

Why won't the pain go away?


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