Lina Inverse. She destroyed my kingdom with her Dragon Slave. And I couldn't be happier.
Oh, sure, I act like I want revenge desperately. I do, really. She destroyed my ancestral home, my inheritance. All gone, because of her.
For some reason, though, I'm so happy! There's no why to it, I just am. I feel light-headed and giddy.
It might be because for all of my life, I've never had any time that has belong to just me. When I worshipped Zoamelgustar, it was part of my court appointed time. When I laughed maniacally, it was already planned out for me to laugh at an exact time. I had no real choice.
In my Kingdom, I yearned to prove myself. I studied really hard at learning all about chimeras, so I could be the best ruler of Zoana ever, for everyone knows that you have to be a master of chimeras to be a good ruler of Zoana.
I worked hard to be strange and erratic, so no one would even try to tell me what to do.
In the end, it didn't really matter.
Lina Inverse destroyed Zoana.
And I finally found a way to prove myself.
First, I would get revenge on Lina Inverse, proving myself worthy of being the future Queen of Zoana. Then, I would single-handedly rebuild Zoana, with a little help from Zoamelgustar, of course.
It was going to be so perfect! I would finally show the entire world that I was good enough to bear the name Princess Martina of Zoana. I would show the world that I was strong, and could stand on my own two feet.
Sure, it had it's downsides. I had to earn my own money for one. But I told myself that it would all be worth it, that it would be make me stronger. I reminded myself of that old proverb ' What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger '. I took it to heart and repeated it every day.
Unfortunately, it didn't turn out that way.
No one seemed to really care about me. I fell in love with Xelloss, but he turned out to be a Mazoku. Then I met a cute little boy who seemed to really care, and he turned out to be worse than a mere Mazoku. He was the Hellmaster Phibrizo, the greatest of all the Mazoku Lords!
It all ended well though.
I now have a loving husband, Zangulus. I have four beautiful children.
I am truly happy.
I don't have to prove myself to everyone. Because all who love me, love me for me. Not for who I was born to be, but who I am.
Soon, I will begin to rebuild Zoana, and teach my children the ancient traditions. I still worship Zoamelgustar, but he isn't the central point in my life any longer.
This is my life.