Such darkness held behind smiling lips and clossed eyes. So many secrets kept within an innocent laugh. So much power held and not used. So much lonliness hidden behind a mask of contentment.
How long will you keep yourself hidden Xellos?
Will I have to come to you in order to see what lies behind your viel of mystery?
I need to solve your riddle, can you not feel it? Can you not sense it when I look at you? If you do notice, are you ignoring it? Or perhaps you are only pretending not to notice as some sort of game.
Damn it, you intrique me, draw me in with veiled eyes. I am starving for a glimpse of your hidden gaze and the soul held within it.
How long will I wait for some little sign that I will be accepted?
I cannot face your rejection, it is my greatest weakness, this fear of being turned away, and I cannot overcome it. I need some indication, anything.
But I recieve nothing. Either you cannot feel my need or you deliberately deny me. You are a mazoku after all, perhaps you do this in order to enjoy my pain.
I cannot bear that thought, the idea that I will never be freed from this all consuming desire. If that is true than it will drive me mad, I will loose control over my actions and your rejection will then mean nothing to me.
Is that what you want?
I hate this uncertainty, I need a resoultion or I will break. Anything, please Xellos, if you can feel my silent plea then give me an answer now!
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Yes Xellos?
Yes please, that would be nice.
I am here.