This is a fanfic, and a songfic using the lyrics from the song Sweet Surrender by Sarah McLachlan.
It doesn't mean much
It doesn't mean anything at all
The life I've left behind me
Is a cold room
Zelgadiss sat on the bed and looked around the room he had taken for the evening. It was sparsely furnished, barren, empty. One more cold room in a lifetime of cold rooms. He sighed and thought for a moment of Xellos' offer.
In truth, he hadn't stopped thinking about it since the mazoku had suggested it. The thought of sharing a room, sharing a bed, with another person was tempting. To share it with Xellos was something he'd hardly dared to hope for.
I've crossed the last line
From where I can return
Where every step I took
In faith betrayed me
And lead me from my home
It was hard for him though. As much as he longed for the gift Xellos offered, to accept it would mean lowering his barriers. Once they were down, he wouldn't be able to raise them again, and he knew that there would be no part way with this. If they came down even a little bit they would be lowered all the way. He would be completely vulnerable, and he didn't know if he could risk that.
Sweet surrender
Is all that I have to give
The empty room helped to make the decision for him. It mocked him, taunted him with visions of a future as lonely and cold as his past. The above all else was what he feared. More than anything, no matter what the cost, he didn't want to be alone anymore. Standing, he left the empty room behind him.
You take me in
No questions asked
You strip away the ugliness
The surrounds me
Xellos opened the door in response to his knock and smiled as he let him in. Zelgadiss looked around the room as he stood there nervously. It was as empty as his had been, but with Xellos there it didn't feel as cold.
Arms slipped around him from behind and he was pulled back tightly against Xellos' chest.
"I'm glad you came." Xellos whispered in his ear. Zelgadiss relaxed into the embrace as the mazoku's hands caressed his chest, removing the clothing he wore and exposing his naked form to scrutiny. "You're beautiful," Xellos said, his voice soft in awe as he led him towards the bed and Zelgadiss whimpered. It had been so long since he had heard those words, and he had never expected to hear them again.
Are you an angel
Am I already that gone
I only hope that
I won't disappoint you
When I'm down here on my knees
Xellos kissed him then, turning that whimper into a low moan as the chimera drank in the experience he had long since denied himself. Zelgadiss let his hands explore Xellos' body now, his hesitation shed as quickly as the mazoku's clothes. He felt Xellos gasp as his mouth skimmed the soft flesh of the mazoku's chest, slowly going lower as he knelt before his new lover.
"Zelgadiss!" Xellos' voice was surprised as the chimera began to suck lightly on his hardening shaft. Zelgadiss could feel Xellos' hands clenching at his hair as the mazoku's hips began to rock in time to his mouth.
Sweet surrender
Is all that I have to give
He could hear the telltale quickening in Xellos' breathing and drew back in time to swallow the mazoku's essence. Xellos' hips stopped rocking shortly after and he stood there panting, looking down at Zelgadiss with a mixture of shock and passion. With a smile, he pulled Zelgadiss to his feet and kissed the chimera deeply, sliding his tongue into Zelgadiss' mouth when he opened it in invitation.
Sweet surrender
Is all that I have to give
The kiss was deep and possessive. Zelgadiss could feel himself leaning in closer to Xellos as his muscles seemed to melt under the intensity of it. When Xellos finally moved his mouth away, the chimera could do nothing but cling to him.
Xellos chuckled lightly, the sound sending shivers of desire down Zelgadiss' weakened spine. He ran his mouth down the chimera's neck before biting lightly at the muscles of his shoulder. "Your turn now Zel-chan," he whispered lightly, lowering the faint chimera to the bed.
And I don't understand
How the touch of your hand
I would be the one to fall
Zelgadiss moaned deeply as Xellos began running his hands over the chimera's body again. The mazoku's touch was so strong, Zelgadiss could feel even the lightest touch from him, even through his stone skin. Those teasing caresses finally focused on the are they had been avoiding as Xellos began to stroke Zelgadiss' length almost reverently, causing the chimera to twist his hands in the bed sheet before releasing quickly.
He lay there trembling, lost in the aftermath before slowly becoming aware of Xellos' hands caressing his back and the tears that were on his cheeks. It had been so long. He let his head rest against Xellos' chest as he waited for his breathing to return to normal.
I miss the little things
I miss everything about you
He looked up at Xellos, only to discover his mazoku watching him with a more tender expression than he had ever expected to see on Xellos' face. Knowing that his heart was in his own eyes, Zelgadiss leaned up and kissed his lover again before whispering, "More."
A shiver ran through Xellos' body and he tightened his arms around Zelgadiss, kissing him deeply, even as he moved to lie above him.
It doesn't mean much
It doesn't mean anything at all
The life I left behind me
Was a cold room
Warmth filled Zelgadiss as Xellos' body covered him. He was burning with the heat of his own desire while being warmed Xellos' and still, he wanted more. When he felt the mazoku's dampened fingers sliding in to prepare his body he knew that Xellos was going to give it to him.
Relaxing into this new caress Zelgadiss began to whimper as Xellos' fingers filled him with a deep sense of urgency. "Xellos, please." He whispered, demanded, and felt the mazoku's hand drift from him as Xellos complied.
Sweet surrender
Is all I have to give
He couldn't stop the cry of pleasure that escaped from his lips as Xellos entered his body, hadn't wanted to. He heard Xellos' answering exclamation as the mazoku pressed himself into Zelgadiss' body and paused, holding himself motionless.
They lay like that for as long as they were able, breath coming in short gasps as they savoured the feeling of being joined. When neither could take the stillness anymore Xellos began to move, pulling back to Zelgadiss' entrance before pushing back in as the chimera's hips rose to meet him. Their climaxes came but a heartbeat apart and they clung to each other as they recovered from the force of it.
Sweet surrender
Is all I have to give
Raising his head weakly, Zelgadiss met Xellos' gaze, seeing in the mazoku's eyes a pleasure and satisfaction to match his own. Their lips met one more time in a tender kiss, and then they held each other gently as sleep came to claim them.