Confusion.
That's all I know.
My heart beats again. I know it does; I can feel it.
But why? Could it be... him?
I can remember ever detail of his face. From the fine strands of dark purple hair to the pale leanness of his body to the cutting shards of amethyst eyes always hidden behind a mocking, secret smile...
Why does he make me feel this way? Why, whenever I am near, does my heart beat painfully in my chest?
"Hello, Zel-kun," I hear him purr in my ear. Yes, hello Mazoku. I bet you're eating my pain like the finest candy.
"Go away, Fruitcake," I snarl. I won't hurt him. He likes it, and I won't give that damn Mazoku anymore pleasure...
My heart hears his innocent, child-like voice, and starts thudding dully in my chest. I can't feel it anymore. I won't!
Why do you do it, Xellos? Why do you make my heart beat again? Damn it, you namagomi demon! Why?
Is it because you love me? Baka na! Mazoku know nothing of the softer emotions!
"Aww, Zel-kun, don't be a stick in the mud," he whines. I can if I very damn well please!
I pull out my sword, and slide it into his heart. "Does you heart now feel the same pain mine does?" I hiss at him, ignoring the slight betrayal in his eyes. "I hate you, Xellos Metallium. I hate how you torture me, how you feed off my anger... how you make me love you. My heart is beating again, and it shouldn't!"
One of his hands reaches up to touch my face. Oh, no. I push him away, pulling my sword from its grisly sheath. I walk away, not worried. He will heal within the hour, easily. After all, he healed what Gaav inflicted on him, and he had half his damn body cut away! He'll be fine.
But will I be?