Part 18


Notes

This is going to be a songfic~ The song is The Best Thing By Savage Garden. Many thanks to Misty for helping me get a song for this part!


2 weeks later...

Never want to fly
Never want to leave
Never want to say what you mean to me
Never want to run
Frightened to believe
You're the best thing about me

Lina shoved her hands in her pockets as she was walking through a park. She was coming back from the pharmacy as usual and was taking the long way to go back to her apartment. Which would give her a good two hours or so. She stopped walking and stared upward looking at the clear autumn sky. She looked around seeing piles and piles of yellow, brown, red leaves around her. She then walked over to a bench and decided to sit there for a while and so some serious thinking.

She didn't notice though, that Zelgadiss was nearby watching her. After she took a seat, he left for he had an inspiration for another painting of Lina. Damn...she looked so pure and innocent with all those leaves floating around her. The autumn breezes that were swiftly flowing through her hair made her look like she was a goddess. This'll be my last painting before I get married...

Zel stared at her for a few more minutes before leaving. Lina never knew that he was there.

Sometimes I feel like this is only chemistry
Stuck in a maze searching for a way to
Shut down run around feel the ground beneath me
You're so close where do you end where do I begin?
Always pushing and pulling

Lina sighed to herself. What's up with me? Why am I always thinking of Zel? Well yeah other than the fact that he's my best friend and that he's my former brother, what other reasons is there for me to always think about him?

Lina's mind flashed back to the old days. When they were only 9 and 8 years old. That was the third time they went to their beach. How they were having a sandcastle-building contest. Lina would always have trouble, for she couldn't get the sands to become the shapes she wanted. Zel would always end up winning. He was the one blessed with the artistic side. Lina closed her eyes. Those were the times...

Sometimes sanity takes vacation time on me
I'm in a daze stumbling bewildered
North of gravity head up in the stratosphere
You and I roller coaster riding love
You're the center of adrenaline
And I'm beginning to understand

"Zel..." Lina sighed again and stared straight ahead. After several minutes she pulled herself off the bench and started for home again. She was walking and everywhere she saw couples. That reminds me of Xel and me. Lina softly smiled. But I am not happy with him like that. I am not. I don't think he's the best thing for me...

Lina clutched her parka tighter, and sped up her pace. The sight of all the happy couples got her nauseous. What's the matter with me?

Never want to fly
Never want to leave
Never want to say what you mean to me
Never want to run
Frightened to believe
You're the best thing about me

Zelgadiss rubbed his forehead in frustration. The painting wasn't coming out well. Damn this sucks. Supposed to be my best work, since it's the last artwork I'll ever do of her before I get married. Why isn't it turning out right?

Zel decided to take a break for a bit. He left the studio and went to his room. He lay down on his bed and started to daydream. Lina...the days when we had to worry about nothing are long gone. Zel turned over to his side.

Walk on broken glass make my way through fire
These are the things I would do for love
Farewell peace of mind kiss goodbye to reason

Lina...you're the only that truly understood me. No one else was as caring as you are. No one can ever take your place. Amelia is a different story. I don't love her...but I have to marry her. You told me to follow my heart. The thing is...I don't know what my heart wants anymore...

Up is down the impossible occurs each day
This intoxication thrills me
I only pray it doesn't kill me

Nobody else has the energy of life like you have. Your beauty...its beyond any paintings that I could describe...Speaking of painting, better get back to it.

Zel got up lazily, picked up his brush, and added more strokes to the painting. It was coming out well than before. Geez...is it me or did am I painting well because I started to think of her...? But I always think of her...? Damn this is just confusing.

Never want to fly
Never want to leave
Never want to say what you mean to me
Never want to run
Frightened to believe
You're the best thing about me

Lina finally reached her apartment. She went into her bedroom and threw herself on the floor. Then she turned her head and the first thing that caught her eyes was the picture of her and Zel at the beach many years before. She got up and reached for it, bringing it closer to her.

You're the center of adrenaline
And I'm beginning to understand
You could be the best thing about me

Zel put down his painting utensils again, and stepped back. He stared at his own masterpiece. It truly was a masterpiece. Nicely blended watercolor of all the autumn colors were mixed together. The leaves and the trees seemed to be alive. In the midst of it all, stood one figure. Lina. Hair was in the motion of breezes going through it, and her clutching her parka. The painting was so awed filled, that it even left Zel speechless.

Zel left the room and went to his bedroom. He reached to his night table and grabbed a picture frame. It had the same picture Lina was holding at that moment. He closed his eyes and lay down on the bed.

Never want to fly
Never want to leave
Never want to say what you mean to me
Never want to run
Frightened to believe
You're the best thing about me

Lina looked up suddenly as if lightning jolted her. Tears came to her eyes as realization finally hit her. I love him. That's why I'm always thinking about him. He's...he's...I love him. All this time, ever since he came back...I loved him ever since. He's the best thing in my life...he's the only one that'll ever understand me. The only that truly cares for me and I care back...

Lina started to weep her heart out, clutching the photograph closer to her heart. It's to late though...he's getting married to Amelia. He doesn't even love me back. Who am I kidding? Lina cried her heart out throughout the entire night.

Never want to fly
Never want to leave
Never want to say what you mean to me
Never want to run
Frightened to believe
You're the best thing about me

Zel opened his eyes suddenly and sat up on the bed. "...I care for her. I...She...I love her. That's the whole reason. That's what my heart was telling me the entire time. That's what my heart wanted me to do. Marry her." Zel mumbled hoarsely to himself. "I...I'm so stupid. It's all too late now. It's all too late. She probably doesn't even love me..."

Zel got up suddenly and ran to the kitchen to get some water. I...I...this is killing me. When they said that love was painful...it is...it is. But she's the best thing of my life...am I to her?

Never want to fly
Never want to leave
Never want to say what you mean to me
Never want to run
Frightened to believe
You're the best thing about me


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