The Hardest Thing

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Notes: The Hardest Thing is by 98 Degrees.

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We both know that I shouldn't be here, this is wrong
And baby it's killin' me, it's killin' you, both of us tryin' to be strong

He couldn't! It wasn't possible! It simply could not be possible! But he was ... in love ...

I've got somewhere else to be, promises to keep
Someone else who loves me, and trust me fast asleep

He had seen her from afar, watching her whenever Eris's back was turned. Observing every movement of her hands, every twinkle in her eye, every flap of her cape, every swish of her silky hair, every blow she dealt to her companions and enemies alike. There was only one problem. He had to kill her.

I've made up my mind, there is no turning back
She's been good to me, and she deserves better than that

She had never done anything to him specifically, but she had done something to his predecessor. The one he was created from. The one that Eris was so devoted to. He hated Eris for that, for making him like Him. He could care less about Lina's death, but it was necessary, no matter how much it hurt ...

It's the hardest thing I'll never have to do
To look you in the eye and tell you I don't love you

He must kill her! To prove to Eris forever that he was not Rezo and never would be Rezo!

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion when you start to cry

He didn't want to hurt Lina. In fact, he just wanted to see her face to face. Maybe she would accept him as himself, not as a copy. She accepted the Chimera as he was. Why not himself?

I can't let you see what you mean to me
When my hands are tied and my heart's not free

He had no choice ...

We're not meant to be it's the hardest thing I'll never have to do
To turn around and walk away pretending I don't love you

Could he pull it off when she finally came to him? Could he hold his emotion inside when he made the killing blow?

I know that we'll meet again, Fate has a place and time
So you can get on wit your life, I've got to be cruel to be kind

Fate was crueler than cruel in making the woman who was supposed to be his enemy his heart's desire.

Like Dr. Zhivago, all my love I'll be sending
And you'll never know 'cause there can be no happy ending

There was no way out of this. No way to save her. No way to save himself.

It's the hardest thing I'll never have to do
To look you in the eye and tell you I don't love you

They were coming, she was coming. In a moment of pure triviality, he spent the entire day planning his wardrobe. What would he say?! Forget that, what would he do?!

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion when you start to cry

Damn Eris for her interference! If it wasn't for her .... He wouldn't be alive ... he owed her, and because of that he would have to kill his "enemy".

I can't let you see what you mean to me
When my hands are tied and my heart's not free

He would be strong ... he would prove himself. He just wanted to prove himself to Lina ...

We're not meant to be it's the hardest thing I'll never have to do
To turn around and walk away pretending I don't love you

They were here ... and she was more beautiful than any image or picture could possibly be or show. More fire, more life. A life he would have to snuff out. If only he could hold her once ... and tell her how much he loved her ...

Maybe another time, another day
As much as I want to, I can't stay

He couldn't delay any longer with this lie, the lie of weakness. Eris was suspecting. He left. Let her find him, he was finding Lina.

I've made up my mind, there is no turning back
She's been good to me and she deserves better than that

It is thrilling to race her to the heart of His lab. Thrilling to see she had succeeded. She could save herself now.

It's the hardest thing I'll never have to do
To look you in the eye and tell you I don't love you

Damn Eris again! He would make her suffer for interfering with him. Her "control" had gone on long enough. Good-bye Eris.

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion when you start to cry

She only needed to cast the spell! Just kill him and save her life. To die by her hands was worth more than any success over Him.

I can't let you see what you mean to me
When my hands are tied and my heart's not free

I promise to be gentle and quick. I promise to make it as easy as I can. Goodbye Lina-chan ... beloved ...

We're not meant to be it's the hardest thing I'll never have to do
To turn around and walk away pretending I don't love you

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