First Love


Author's Note

First Love by Utada Hikaru (Go Hikki!) This is a rough translation... The ones in the brackets are the real song It's a very remarkable song! Go and listen to it!!


In your final kiss (Saigo no KISU wa)
I could taste the flavor of tobacco (TABAKO no flavor ga shita)
It was bitter and painful smell (Ngakute setsunai kaori)

"Are you sure you won't stay here in Saillune?" Amelia asked. He shook his head as he swung his cape over his shoulders, putting it on.

"I have unfinished business to do," he said frankly. Amelia looked down in disappointment.

"I gotta go now," He said as he walked towards the Saillune's castle door with Amelia trailing behind. As he was about to step out, Amelia pulled back his hand.

"Zelgadiss," She uttered. She clumsily opened her pink bracelet. "Here..have this," She took his hand and placed the pink bracelet with blue ball in his palm and closed his fingers. He frowned like always. Then he managed a little smile.

"I'd better get going," He said as he clutched the bracelet in his hands. He turned and walked towards his who knows journey.

"Bye, Zelgadiss!" Amelia waved towards her friend. Good luck on your search....

At about this time tomorrow (Ashita no imagoro niwa)
I wonder where you'll be (Anata wa doki ni irun darou)
I wonder whom you'll be thinking of (Dare mo omoretterun darou)

Amelia recalls back her last meeting with Zelgadiss. She sighed. Where are you Zelgadiss? Amelia smiled as she reminisces the times with Lina and company. How many years has it been? But each little memory still as clear in her mind. Amelia rested her chin on her palms as she gazed outside to the view of the mountains beyond Saillune gates under the twinkling stars in the night.

She clutched her nightshirt near her heart. How it aches when her thoughts lingered around him. People always said that you could never forget your first love. First love? Amelia wondered. How do I know that..... The feeling isn't even mutual.

Amelia closed her eyes as she inhale the cool air. She doesn't want to think about him particularly because she knows life must go on.. but it's hard.... Whatever it is, wherever she is , she was still thinking of him. Are you thinking of me? Perhaps not. Amelia looked down. How she often wished she could meet him again. Night... darkness... just like she's feeling.... Dark.. but with a little bit of hope like the twinkling of the stars. She put her hands together and closed her eyes. Oh.. Kami sama.. I love him so much.. Is it so hard just to know what he feels about me?

You are always gonna be my love
Even if someday you'll fall in love with someone else (Itsuka dareka to mata koi ni ochitemo)
I'll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
For now, it's still a sad song (Ima wa mada kanashii love song)
Until I can sing a new one (Atarashii uta utaeru made)

Zelgadiss gazed at the stars above. He was sitting on a high tree branch searching for the guidance star. After the four split up, he's pretty much gone travelling, searching for his cure on his own. One have to admit it is lonely, but he was the lonely type.. what does he care? Much.... Care so much.. He found himself saying. Zelgadiss shook his head trying to get that out of his head. But how could he? Everyday, every moment it sticks in his mind like a fly on a flypaper. Never forget about.... about.... her.

He sighed as he leaned against the strong trunk of the tree, his legs dangling down. Damn.... why now? He wasn't suppose to focus on anything but his cure for now. But somehow his cure seemed unimportant if compared to the feeling he had. He shivered at the thought.

When I stop moving (Tachidomaru jikan ga)
I try to move on (Ugokidasou to shiteru)
It's nothing but things I don't want to forget (Wasuretakunai koto bakari)

People always say that you can never forget your first love. Zelgadiss laughed at the thought. First Love? What does he know about love? Nothing. Well.. not until he met his friends.... then he knew what friendship was, what sacrifice was... and meeting her.. he knew what love was.....

Goddamn it, Zelgadiss.. get a hold of yourself. He found himself flushed at the thought. He knows the reason why he must focus on his cure than thinking about her.... He can't stop for he knows that if he stops, she comes in his mind. Every single sweet memory.

His heart felt heavier than usual. True.. she hanged around him a lot and he knows that. But it couldn't be more than just a crush. It was just a crush. He longed for more, though. The reason why he's cold and distant around her is because he figured that rather than having himself and her hurt first.... let her get over him. Let her forget about him. She'll find a better person, he knows that and he hated himself for thinking that.

He felt cold against the night breeze that was blowing through the night.. but thinking of Amelia makes him fell warm all over.. Is this ..... He wondered as he gazed at the glittering stars.

At about this time tomorrow (Ahista no imagoro niwa)
I'm sure I'll be crying (Watashi wa kitto naiteru )
And I'll probably be thinking of you (Anata wo omotterun darou)

Amelia felt a stab at her heart. Please hear my prayers. She whispered softly. I just need to know if he does have feelings for me.. then I'll retreat if he doesn't. He deserves some happiness after all even though it doesn't includes me. Her mind wondered around him again. His cynical but expressive eyes, the tone of his voice, the words he speaks....

Stupid, Amelia... she cursed herself. Of course he has forgotten about you. After all who are you in his eyes? Just a kid.. he brushes you off like a broom sweeping off the floor Amelia's head hung low. No.. depression isn't what she's suppose to feel. She should just go inside and jump into bed and dream the sweetest of dreams. But what can dreams do? She felt her heart aches again.

You will always be inside my heart
Because it's a place that will forever be yours alone (itsumo anata dake no basho ga aru kara)
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
Now and Forever you are still the one
For now, it's still a sad love song (Ima wa mada kanashii love song)
Until I can sing a new one (Atarashii uta uitaeru made)

Zelgadiss continued searching for the guidance star. But instead the thought comes to his mind. Amelia forever will be his first love.

Amelia tried to shook Zelgadiss out of her head. But her heart tells her one thing....... Zelgadiss forever will be her first love.

The two distant individuals gazed above their heads as a star flew by. A wishing star they both recognize.....

I wish.... I could meet my love..... my first love.... once again..... They both wished with all their aching heart.

Ai shiteru, Amelia

Ai shiteru, Zelgadiss

You are always gonna be my love
Even if someday you'll fall in love with someone else (Itsuka dareka to mata koi ni ochitemo)
I'll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
It's still a sad song (Mada kanashii love song)
Now and Forever


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