Understanding


Darkness, all there is, is darkness. I am a creature of darkness, surronded by the inky darkness. You would think it would be cold here, but it isn't. The burning emotions within me keep me warm; I guess. In truth, I wasn't always like this. I was once I crature of the light, once long, long ago. My people shone; our laughter and cries of joy filled the air with happiness. But because of Their fear, our laughter was grouned in blood, our cries of joy turned to cries of agony. And me, the cursed one, the one who was cursed to survive. The last of my people, the only one who seems to remember what trully happened. They bent the truth to suit their own needs; they made us appear to be the evil ones. But it was their fault. And now I will wash their sins away with their own blood. Maybe that is why I imbraced this darkness. No, I wanted only destrution when I came here, but my eyes have been opened. I see what I must do, I must cleanse, not destroy. Yes, I will clenase this world, then start it anew, better. No hatred, bigotry, lies. Only the harsh light of truth shall shine. I smile slightly, yes, I will cleanse this world with my darkness. But I have much to prepare for.

At last, the time has come, I have escaped from the confines places upon me, now I may start my cleansing. What is this? That voice, it pieces my blackness. I whirl around and see Her again.

"Valgarv!" she screams and I push my darkness away. At last, someone who can understand. They are surpized to see me alive, not that I blame them. At first I couldn't believe I was alive either. Then Darkstar and Varfeed explained it all to me. All the terrible realities of our worlds, all the injustices placed upon us by the Gods and Daemons. I think she is the most surprised to see me, good. Those iterfereing freaks appear before me and I shield myself once again. Fools, do they trully think they can harm me? I'll crush them all...first starting with that decrepet old dragon. The one wh0o ordered the death of my people. Yes, I have waited long for this moment; I smile. With one blow I clip his wings forever. How foolish, why try and heal that monster? Let the bastard die!

"Ancient Dragon... Do you still wish for the destruction of this world?" the dying Elder asks and I can't contain my evil smile. How clueless they all are.

"So?" I taunt. "How does it feel to be defeated by the one you pleadged to destroy?" I laugh silently. "Because of the mistake you made, the world was thrown into chaos." I smirk. "Eh, servant of God?" The Fire Dragon Elder lifts his head and stares at me with those hatred eyes.

"Ancient Dragon. Everything was my fault."

"You're damn righ it is!" I hiss mentally.

"However, I don't recall making any mistakes." His eyes glint with hatred; good, hatred is good. But fear...well fear is better.

"If that's ths case, then your very existence is a mistake." I gather my power. "Begone!" I growled and release the power. He grunts and writhes as his body is eaten away by the hungry flames. Odd, I figured that it would feel better then this when I killed him. But I only feel this odd emptyness. Suddenly she walks forward; a shining golden light they could peirce even my blackness. Her firned call out for her to wait but she pays them no heed. The grudging respect I felt for her before blossomes temporaily into something more, something warm. What? Kinship because we are no the last of our respective kinds? Pride for her courage? Amusement at her audacity? No, all three and something more, something I can't place my finger on. I tower over her and my warm gaze travels over her and I smile. Not a cruel smile, but a true smile of welcoming.

"My Lady." I murmur sincerely. For that is what she is, a true lady and demands such respect. She looks up at me with those dark eyes filled with such sadness, and knowledge.

"I'm the last of the Golden Dragons. We are now the same." The same? I shiver slightly at the thought, she and I are smililar. Maybe...just maybe she oculd understand me. Barely smothered hope flutters within my heart. "And I can talk freely now because I am no longer a priestess I should have the right to talk to you now."

"Oh?" I ask sneering slightly. "Then let me ask you Who do you hate?" My eyes sparkle with challenge.

"I hate no one!" I smile as the hope within me dies, she doesn't understand; no oe does.

"Everything you said was true." Well I never expected to hear this from such a proud dragon.

"How... How can you forgive me? How can I ask for your forgiveness?" Anger flashes through me moementarily and she raises her arms to block out the blinding flash cause by my outburst.

"What do you want me to do?" Her voice is now laces with tears and....fear? "Valgarv, just tyell me what I can so to make you stop all this!" she cries. I look around and smirk at Xellos, then I look back at her.

"You will never understrand." I say coldly all hope I ever had is now dust. Of course she wouldn't understand, what a fool I was to think she could. "I have nothing to ask of you." If possible my voice has gotten even more cold and she gasp for breath. Now, it's time to reveal my true intentions I suppose. "What I want..." I murmur my eyes widening. "...is to purify everything." She stares up at me with wide, doe-like eyes.

"Purify this world?" My darkness spreads blocking out even the golden light she seems to unconsiously spread.

"Correct" I say, the darkness hiding my smile. "To revert this wolrd bacl to its original state." The only two things that seem real right now is her and me the rest of the worls has seemed to fade away into the darkness. "And to make a new beginning for everything. This is what I want." The only light in this world I have created now if odly coming form my ebony wings A blinding harsh light, hwo ironic that I should expose the harsh truth by this very light. "Now, I ask you... Why are Gods and Daemons always trapped in the eternal way? Why is there always conflict?" Her eyes widen in surprise. "Sometimes the Gods with win..." I continue.

"..and othertimes the Daemons will win." Suddenly my sphere of conciousness spreads and emcompasses all gathered here.

"But for what reason do they fight?" I ask them all. "Do you know why?" I smile bitterly "Still don't understand? We're all just victems of this situation." I can sense the panic and anger seeping fomr the Mazuko scum; good, let him suffer. Let him feel torn. "Don't you think it's a cruel story?" I ask the others conversationally; sarcasim dripping form my voice. "Darkstar and Varfeed are the ones who told me this. Everyone is thire of this." And it's true, we are all tired, myself the most I think. I am tired of all this, let's end this. "That is why it must end now." I echo my thougts verbally. "In other words, what Darkstar and Vorfeed want is to make this worl pure again."

"What?" one of the people form Varfeed's world, Elbragos I believe is his name, demands. "Do you mean to tell us that our own God wishes our destruction?" Ha! At least one of them can catch a clue!

"Exactly!" I cry. "This was the reason Darkstar absorbed Varfeed, to cleanse everything!" Let them chew on that for a while. I look around coldly taking in their despair, such a cold, empty emotion.

"Just a minut now. I won't stand for this." That child-like sorceress; high voice breaks the silence. My eyes narrow in rage. Lina Inverse, the murdered of Garv-sama. Hatres swells within my chest and for a moment I forget about my plans to purify this world. Thoughts of her destruction, along with Xellos' reign suddenly

"Lina-san!" Firia gasps and I snap out of my hate filled reverie..

"Don't forget about me." The loud-mouthed sorceress continues. "I'm the one who represtents the humans." The arrogance that radiates form this puny human is getting on my nerves. "I'd rather not get involved with this crap, but at this point I really have no choice." The little bitch arrogantly walks forward, fearless, confidant. How I hate her... She walks until she is abreast with that blong idiot Gourry. "For me, this most important thing is to live my life."

"Lina!" Gourry shouts smiling at her. The little justice loving princess walks forward as the stone freaked Chimera speaks.

"That's right, and don't forget about us either. We won't let you do as you please." The situation is swiftly getting out of hand I fear.

"Sorry, but we will fight until the end." Enough of this pointless banter! I gkare and the darkness breaks dispelling; swirling.

"Human life is short. But their willingness to win is so great." Firia murmurs. My eyes narrow as I look at her.

"All the nonsense ends here!" Xellos cries and releases his arrow of light. I slame my barriers up, enough talk it would seem. Everything is momentarily bathed in blinding white light and the darkness swirles around me, cloaking me. The battle has begun. The run, trying to uselessly put some distance between us. I see Firia teleport my every faithful Foxman Jiras out of the way. I lumber forward, this body is very difficult to control and I have yet to master it. But I am gaining more and more power by the minute. I see Xellos teleport and grab Lina while the others are firing their useless weapons. They compine her Dragon Slave with the Garvera and Darkstay and I snarl in pain. The two from Varfeeds wolrd combine their powers and summon a battleship. With an angry cry Darkstar and I lash out destrying the golden ship. The darkness, my blackness swallows, surrounds them and I appear before them once more.

"Fear not, death is not your fate." I murmur. "But rather to be at peace again." They all stare at me questioningly. "The fighting of the Gods and Daemons was originally meant to better oneself." I explain. "But they have forgotten the true reasons for fighting. Now they fight because the need to." Scorn fills me. "How many lives have been lost?" I raise my head, the resolve burning within me. "I shall stand between varfeev and Darkstar and recreate this world. I will revert it back to a peacful world."

"He's trying to break our concentration!" The Chimera cries suddenly breaking their stunned silence. "We'll be thrown into the Astral dimension!" Lina blinks and a pain filled scream is thrown form the Mazuko."

"Xellos!" Lina cries. My face is a mast of hatred and my eyes burn as I continue.

"The Gods and Daemons must be extinguished." Xellos continues to cry out in agony but I ignore him, my gaze rests only on her, on Firia. "Soonm all you humans will have peace." I adress Lina, my gaze never wavering. "But why do you resist? Don't you want peace?" My voice shifts slightly, cajouling "A wolrd that is forever the center of everything that is good? No one is in pain and no one suffers in that world." The light issuing from me expands.

"Damn..." Zelgadis growls. "...we are going to lose it!" He suddenly turns to the annoying justice loving princess. "Amelia sing! Anything will do... Sing the song of life!" Amelia blinks.

"Ha..hai!" she cries and begins to sing tunelessly a nonsense song about life. Incredulousness fills me, what the hell does she think she is doing!?

"Valgarv forgive us." Lina murmurs softly, her red eyes closed. "But we humans don't need this." I look sharply at her.

"Lina-san!" Amelia all but bubbles with excitement.

"Human lives are short, weak and always made up of mistakes." But stare at her dispassionately.

"But still, we do forgive...and when we hurt we never want to get hurt again..." A bleakness seeps through me, consuming me like the darkness never could. "We still manage to get on with our lives no matter what it takes. The past, present and the future too...we don't want to ruin any of it. That's why I'm not going to lose today" A ancient tireness fallows the bleakness as this mere human describes all that I once longed for, believed in...once. "That's how we are..and we will do whatever it takes to win." A bitter-sweet, poinant speech; but her words have struck a cord within me.

"Well..to starts over again and forgets everything means no past, right?" The idiot blond says in a rare moment of enlightenment. "Sorry, but I'd rather not!"

"That's right, I don't want to be someone else." The Chimera, Zelgadis murmurs.

"Exactly!" The hyperactive princess says enthusiastically. Sadness floads through me and a bitter-sweet smile rests on my face as I stare at these remarkable humans.

"Valgarv, if it realls is your desire to purify this world..." I look at my lady, Firia who is supporting Jiras. "Then why...? Why do I see such sadness in your eyes?" My eyes widen in shock, how...how had she been able to see so fast deeply past my barriers? How was she able to see past my façade and sense the sadness welling within, threatening to drown me? A chill runs through me when I realize how open I trully am to her, I just hope she can't read my jumbled and complex feelings towards her. That would been my undoing I fear. Jiras looks up at me with those hopefilled brown eyes.

"I know only that Valgarv-sama saved my life. Valgarv-sama was kind to me...!" Ah, dear, sweet, innocent Jiras with his blind loyalty. "Give him back! Valgarv-sama!" I close my eyes less that Golden witch read my emotions again.

"Is this really what you want?" I ask sofly. "Very well, it's your choise to make!" I cry backing away into the darkness. The darkness and I receed. "Fight for your lives then!" My cry resounds as Darkstar and I once again take to the air. I know where I wish to go. No point in staying here, none of them understand, not even her. Very well, I will cleanse this world and kill them all, her included. The cards have been dealt and now all that remains is Fate's decision. It seems that Fate will always put me against her, but there is no fighting your destiny ne? I just hope that once I have purified the world and recreated it that people won't be placed in the position we are in. Doomed by Fate, doomed to Hate, and doomed to Love.


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