Goodbye


Notes

The song is Goodbye by Air Supply.


I can see the pain living in your eyes

Lina looked at Zel while his back was turned and frowned. She frowned, she remembered the pain hidden in his icy gaze the last time he looked at her. She wanted to do something, to help him, but he shut her out.

And I know how hard you try

I know you want your cure, but all I want is you, she thought silently. If only you'd let me help...

You deserve to have so much more

He deserves better than a scrawny, flat-chested sorceress anyway, she sighed as she turned around.

I can feel your heart and I sympathize

She made up her mind if a cure is what he wanted she wouldn't hold him back. He'd long ago made it clear the search for his cure was his alone. And if that's how he wanted it... a tear silently fell from her eye

And I'll never criticize

You've come to mean so much to me, Zel. I'll never forget you, in the darkness she decided she'd take off on her own.

All you've ever meant to my life

"Bye Zel," she whispered as she snuck off

I don't want to let you down

She looked behind her once to look where he slept.

I don't want to lead you on

If you'd only let me help... she sighed again. But with him shutting her out the only thing she could do was hinder his search.

I don't want to hold you back

I could only hold you back, Zel. She told herself as she wiped away her tears

From where you might belong

Maybe if they crossed paths again after he found his cure...

You would never ask me why

Zelgadis got up before dawn, intent on leaving. I don't want to hurt Lina anymore.

My heart is so disguised

His face was as emotionless as it usually was, but one tear slid trom his eye.

I just can't live a lie anymore

"Lina," he said not daring to look where she slept. "You've become my reason for living, but I can't be with you... Not like this"

I would rather hurt myself

As he started to walk away it felt as if a fist clenched his heart.

Than to ever make you cry

Better me hurting than you, beloved...

There's nothing left to say but goodbye

He forced himself to walk further onward...

You deserve the chance at the kind of love

"She deserves better than a Chimera," he told himself

I'm not sure I'm worthy of

"I'm sorry Lina, I can't love you like you deserve to be loved... I'm so sorry."

Losing you is painful to me

He wiped away his tears and began to walk faster

I don't want to let you down

The two wandered on, intent of not staying to hurt the other, so convinced that their love could not be returned, and afraid if it was it could only hurt the other.

I don't want to lead you on

Lina, so afraid that she was holding Zel back from that which he longed for, his cure.

I don't want to hold you back

Zel, so afraid Lina could not love him as a Chimera

From where you might belong

Both too worried about hurting the other that they couldn't see that she had become that which he longed for, and that she did love him.

You would never ask me why

Lina tripped on a branch as she stumbled on the path alone, her usual cheery face streaked with tears

My heart is so disguised

There was no more reason she had to hide her feelings. Here - alone - she could let out her sorrow.

I just can't live a lie anymore

When she thought she was far enough away she sunk to the ground, hugging herself as even more tears fell, crying out loud.

I would rather hurt myself

"Look at yourself Lina! You've defeated Shabranigdo, and you can't even leave without falling apart!" she laughed at herself as she forced herself to move on again.

Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say, but goodbye

"Oh, Zel, I miss you already. Goodbye, my love."

You would never ask me why

Zel slowed down after a while, his face more impassive than usual. He had no idea leaving now could hurt so much.

My heart is so disguised

He silently cursed himself for not staying to say goodbye to her to her face.

I just can't live a lie anymore

He thought nothing could be worse than it was trying to keep his emotionless mask around Lina as if he didn't care about her, but this was worse, at least for him.

I would rather hurt myself

"Lina," he heard himself cry softly despite trying his hardest to remain silent.

Than to ever make you cry

He clenched his fists and hurried his pace even more, afraid if he let himself slow he'd turn back...

There's nothing left to try
Though it's gonna hurt us both
There's no other way than to say goodbye

This was the only way... "Goodbye Lina"


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