navy = Zel's POV
red = Lina's POV
purple = Xellos's POV
How could he talk like that? I only wanted to lend
some comfort. Why is he always so cold, why can't he
open up? Can't he see that we care..... that I care? Oh
Zel, I just wish, you would except me.
"Ne Lina-chan." I look up in shock in time to see
Xellos jump in front of me.
"What do you want Xellos?" I ask coldly.
Leave me alone. I add silently. The last thing I
need is to deal with Xellos' perpetual cheerfulness.
"Did that mean Chimera hurt your feelings?" Xellos
asked smiling his Trickster's smile.
"You were spying?" I asked shocked, how dare he!
"Such a strong word, spying. I prefer gathering
information." Xellos said lightly. "Can I help it if
that foolish Chimera cannot see the beautiful treasure
right in front of his face?" Xellos asked as he laid a
hand on my shoulder.
"What are you up to?" I wonder. Yet, I don't object to
his touch. As long as that is all he tries. Xellos
leaned down and whispered in my ear.
"I see and can appreciate the lovely creature you are
Lina-chan." I turn and look at him surprised.
"Xellos......"
"Shhh Lina-chan." Xellos murmured as he laid a gloved
finger over my lips. "Perhaps the Chimera's heart lies
elsewhere?" Xellos murmured as he cocked his head to
the side.
"Shut up!" I scream at him as I push him out of the
way. Surprisingly, he doesn't follow me.
"Ah run away all you want Lina-chan, I will catch someday." I let my mask drop, and smile my true Mazuko smile. "You will come to me of your own accord, one day. But what is to stop me from making sure that day doesn't come sooner, rather them later?" I laugh softly. This is going to take some planning, for the Chimera is no fool. Yes I will have to be patient, and careful. Not that it matters to one of my kind. After all, I have all the time in the world.
It has been a week since we fought, and she still
won't talk to me.
Nice, Zel, she won't even let you get close enough to
apologize. What am I going to do? I look down at the
girl latched onto my arm. "Amelia, for the last time,
let go!" I try to shake her off, but she is clinging
like she is glued to my arm. I sigh; this is going to
be another long day. At least the inn we are staying
at has a bathhouse. I'll have a chance to calm down,
and even Amelia can't follow me there. I hear Lina
laugh and look up form my coffee, she and Xellos sure
are friendly these days. Can you really blame her
Stone Boy, after all, you have proven yourself to be a
cold and heartless bastard. I shake my head; this is
getting me now where.
"Excuse me." I murmur as I walk up to my room, yes, a
bath sounds really nice. I glare over at Xellos, is it
just me, or does his smile seem more smug then usual?
"First things first Zelly, go get your bath, then you
can play with the Mazuko." I smile slightly, another
piece of my sanity gone; I am now talking to myself.
My bitter laughter follows me down the hall. The other
men in the bathhouse give me odd looks as I walk past
them to the farthest bath stall. Even after all this
time, it still hurts when people flinch from my face.
I try not to notice as they make wards against evil,
and leave. Another bitter laugh, at least I never have
to worry about a crowded bathhouse. I shut the curtain
and shed my clothing. Then I step into the tub and sit
down.
"I am a Champion on Justice, yes I am, yes I am." I
sigh, even in the bath; Amelia finds a way to be near
me. And it would appear that the Gods even put her on
the other side of that wall.
Why me? I wonder silently as I begin to scrub at my
scales. Stupid things, the scales, and so bloody hard
to clean! Despite what the other think, I love to take
bathes, for one thing, if I don't, these, scale-like
smaller stone imbedded in my skin begin to itch. Gods
how they itch! "Damn you Rezo." I snarl the litany
once more. "I wonder why Xellos looked so smug?"
"I am a Justice Advocate." Amelia switched song
suddenly and I heard her splashing around in her own
tub. "Whoops." she cheerfully and I hear her lean
against the wall. What a minute, she's falling through
the wall. "AHHHH!!!!!" Amelia screamed as she fell
backwards, and right into my lap.
Ohmygodsohmygodsohmygods. My mind blanks out and
Amelia starts screaming, again. I try to calm her down
and she suddenly seems to realize where she is.
"Oh.... Gomen na Zelgadis-san." She cried blushing beat
red as she tried to cover herself up. I feel the heat
rise on my cheeks, surely I am at red as Amelia is
"No....." I look up and I see Lina standing there with a
towel throne over her shoulder, and a robe wrapped
around her slender body.
"Lina... it's not...." Lina whirls around and flees. "Oh
Gods."
Oh Gods no.... no not her. How can he..... he loves
Amelia." I hear a pathetic animal-like crying. It's
me, oh no.
"Ray Wing!" I scream, if I don't leave, I know I will
only make a fool out of myself, and I will not lose my
last shred of pride. No even my love for Zel can do
that, I will not allow myself to be striped of my
dignity.
How can he love her?! my mind screams over and over...
why couldn't it have been me? Why her...... why... oh, why
am I condemned to this. L-sama, will I always be
alone, is there no one out there for me? I try to open
myself to love, and he loves someone else. In giving
me these powers, have you sentenced my to walk the
path alone, unloved by the one I love?" I fall to the
ground and begin to pound my fist into the soft earth
as if I could so easily rid myself of the deep and
heavy hole in my heart. "Take them!" I scream. "I
would rather be a powerless human, then one doomed to
wander this life alone, and the next as well! Please
Lord of Nightmares; let me have just one short at
happiness, one chance at peace. At least allow me
that." I feel the tears running down my cheeks, but it
doesn't matter, no one is here to see them. Alone,
like always, I am Lina Inverse, sorceress supreme, and
the restless wanderer. A spirit that lives is
half-complete, always alone, and never truly happy. I
have no soulmate; I have no, person who holds the
second half of my soul. I am doomed, and there is
nothing I can do about it. Suddenly a strong pair of
arms wraps themselves around me.
"Of Lina don't cry, shhhh, please, don't cry." I look
up into Xellos' concerned eyes. His eyes are open, and
swirling with emotions, emotions I didn't even know he
could feel. I bury my head in his shoulder and he
simply holds me, softly smoothing my hair, "Shhh
Lina, shhhh."
"Thank you Xellos." I whisper as I try to wipe the
tears form my face. Xellos leans down and softly
kissed the trails the tears made down my cheeks.
"Xell..... Xellos I don't think..." Xellos shakes his head
slightly.
"Don't think Lina, feel. Feel how I my heart beat,
hear my voice in you ears." Xellos leaned forward
until his lips where just above mine. "Do you feel
it?" he asked softly, and I truly did feel it. I could
sense his feelings for me tugging at the edge of my
awareness. I could also sense his fear and confusion.
And then he kissed me, and my entire world was
enveloped in bright warmth, that drove all the
coldness form my bones. Could he be the one? Could
Xellos be the one who completes me? He must, who else
could make me feel like this.... Who else?